(06-17-2010, 07:23 AM)KorJax link Wrote: i just odnt understand... we have everything in common. hiking, animals, pc games (only friend i've ever known who has like pc gmaes on that note), puns, reading, geek-stuff, etc.... and despite him showing care when i held him, despite getting in my pants more than I wanted to, he was nothing but a phoney who didn't actually want to care about me. and yet... because everyhing i do i can relate to him, makes me doing anything feel like a monster

i don't think i can go through with this again. getting to know someone on a personal level that who actually appeciates and/or likes the things you do is someone i've never even known could exsist for a guy like me. Then to meet someone incredible like that who is also gay like me, and (falsely) showed interest and concern twoards me, only to be stabbed in the back takes my very identnty and ruins it. I cant trust anyone anymore

the worst part is that he probably doesnt even realize all this and thinks he was perfectly okay to text his boyfriend of 6mo out of the blue to go home when i come visit him and doesn't understand what hes actually done.

(06-17-2010, 08:47 AM)Vandamguy link Wrote: you should be pissed at this dude. it helps with the healing.

(06-17-2010, 10:39 AM)KorJax link Wrote: Thanks ofr all the support guys, I really appreciate it. I've woken up, cried a bit, taklen a 30 min shower and went back to bed and for the moment feel calm. I'm avoiding thinking about anything right now and wonder if this is a bad idea to do.

He mentioned last night that he wanted to come by today to talk, I don't know if I should message him back or even if I want to see him ever again (funny thing 2 days ago all I wanted to do was to see his face). I'm not sure if I should try and make a friendship out of this like he obligitorily mentioned, or if I should tell him to screw someone else. I feel like the friendship would be scarred forever it's just..

if he would have communicated this 3-4months ago, if he would have said "lets slow down a bit I'm not ready for a serious relationship" after the first or second time he's gotten into my pants, I would have trusted him. Felt hurt for a few hours, but trusted him. now I don't know what to think or if he's worth my time at all. but the thing is, I feel like he should be worth my time because of all we've got in common and the fact that we are both gay. I've not met a single person in my 20 years who came even close to hitting all those checkmarks and he was it, but now I'm not so sure in myself that I'll ever see such a rare thing again.

being gay sucks when statistically only 5% of the world will even qualify as gay too and within that 5%, 95% are full of people you just can't relate to at all.

Anyways, on to someone else's bad day I've sure spent enough of a page on mine

(06-17-2010, 11:17 AM)Dtrain323i link Wrote: Join the dark side bro. Vaginas are more fun.  ;D

(06-17-2010, 11:41 AM)LT Crow link Wrote: [quote author=Dtrain323i link=topic=3709.msg158741#msg158741 date=1276791438]
Join the dark side bro. Vaginas are more fun.  ;D

(06-17-2010, 12:59 PM)Funbucks link Wrote: So random question...what piercings are considered 'gay' (like not in the 'lol thats dumb manner") cause I see all these dudes nowadays with diamonds in their ears, or someone told me a couple days ago that nose rings and brow piercings make people assume you're gay

(06-17-2010, 01:02 PM)Surf314 link Wrote: [quote author=Funbucks link=topic=3709.msg158775#msg158775 date=1276797584]
So random question...what piercings are considered 'gay' (like not in the 'lol thats dumb manner") cause I see all these dudes nowadays with diamonds in their ears, or someone told me a couple days ago that nose rings and brow piercings make people assume you're gay

(06-17-2010, 01:02 PM)Surf314 link Wrote: And if you roll up one pants leg you are a dealer and the other you are a user.

(06-17-2010, 01:08 PM)Versus-pwny- link Wrote: pretty sure i've seen a transsexual woman, looks completely like a man now, but still has a vagina and does porn

(06-17-2010, 01:12 PM)Surf314 link Wrote: [quote author=Versus-pwny- link=topic=3709.msg158778#msg158778 date=1276798108]
pretty sure i've seen a transsexual woman, looks completely like a man now, but still has a vagina and does porn

(06-17-2010, 01:27 PM)Vlambo link Wrote: I think you're gay when you take dick in the butt and aren't a woman

(06-17-2010, 01:06 PM)Funbucks link Wrote: [quote author=Surf314 link=topic=3709.msg158776#msg158776 date=1276797734]
[quote author=Funbucks link=topic=3709.msg158775#msg158775 date=1276797584]
So random question...what piercings are considered 'gay' (like not in the 'lol thats dumb manner") cause I see all these dudes nowadays with diamonds in their ears, or someone told me a couple days ago that nose rings and brow piercings make people assume you're gay

(06-17-2010, 01:26 PM)Mission Difficult link Wrote: [quote author=Surf314 link=topic=3709.msg158780#msg158780 date=1276798373]
[quote author=Versus-pwny- link=topic=3709.msg158778#msg158778 date=1276798108]
pretty sure i've seen a transsexual woman, looks completely like a man now, but still has a vagina and does porn

(06-17-2010, 01:12 PM)Surf314 link Wrote: [quote author=Versus-pwny- link=topic=3709.msg158778#msg158778 date=1276798108]
pretty sure i've seen a transsexual woman, looks completely like a man now, but still has a vagina and does porn