(11-21-2011, 09:14 PM)Live-Free-Or-Pie link Wrote: //EMO WHINEFEST AHOY, PROCEED AT YOUR OWN RISK//

Update from the last 48 hours:

Sunday night I find out my grandfather passed. He's no longer in pain and he's not suffering anymore I can find a little comfort. Thanksgiving is all fucked up but at least I get to see some extended family and my kitty from back home. So, really big dose of "well... shit" right there

Monday morning this lands in my inbox...

Quote:Hi,

I'm sorry I've been so haphazard about responding to things. Unfortunately, I don't think I'm going to be able to date or have much of a social life in the next few months. I didn't realize how hectic things were going to get, and with traveling out of town, finals, and REDACTED starting it's only going to get worse; it'd be unfair to try to start anything when I'm only going to get less available in the next few months. I'm really sorry if I led you on at all. You seem to be a really great guy and if timing were different I'd definitely be interested.

All the best,
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Which sounds oddly similar to another e-mail I received from a different girl in July...

Quote:I am doing well. Busy as per usual; these 60 hours are killing me.

Sadly, I am not going to be able to get together this upcoming week. I feel bad for leaving you hanging. I think you are a great guy but I am not sure we are going to be able to work out due to timing and physical distance. That said, I did really enjoy our date.

Best of luck.

Cheers,
REDACTED

Is there some sort of coded message in these things that I'm not seeing.

(╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻
There is no table big enough right now

Not to worry, cheer up contingency plans have been activated and will be going into effect soon.

(11-24-2011, 12:32 AM)LT Crow link Wrote: You know, I've never taken shit.  Like nothing.  not even vitamins.

And then, I found out I was going to Afghanistan in like 2 months, so I started p90x, and started with Muscle Milk.  My plan was to slim down a bit and tone, but no, i packed on 6 pounds the first week, 5 pounds the next week, after that I'm like, "fuck, I don't even meet the weight standard now, i don't want to have to be taped."  so I stopped.   

(11-24-2011, 02:22 AM)matter11 link Wrote: [quote author=LT Crow link=topic=3709.msg231376#msg231376 date=1322112774]
You know, I've never taken shit.  Like nothing.  not even vitamins.

And then, I found out I was going to Afghanistan in like 2 months, so I started p90x, and started with Muscle Milk.  My plan was to slim down a bit and tone, but no, i packed on 6 pounds the first week, 5 pounds the next week, after that I'm like, "fuck, I don't even meet the weight standard now, i don't want to have to be taped."  so I stopped.  

(11-24-2011, 12:32 AM)LT Crow link Wrote: after that I'm like, "fuck, I don't even meet the weight standard now, i don't want to have to be taped."

(11-24-2011, 02:34 AM)versus link Wrote: [quote author=matter11 link=topic=3709.msg231386#msg231386 date=1322119355]
[quote author=LT Crow link=topic=3709.msg231376#msg231376 date=1322112774]
You know, I've never taken shit.  Like nothing.  not even vitamins.

And then, I found out I was going to Afghanistan in like 2 months, so I started p90x, and started with Muscle Milk.  My plan was to slim down a bit and tone, but no, i packed on 6 pounds the first week, 5 pounds the next week, after that I'm like, "fuck, I don't even meet the weight standard now, i don't want to have to be taped."  so I stopped.  

(11-24-2011, 12:32 AM)LT Crow link Wrote: after that I'm like, "fuck, I don't even meet the weight standard now, i don't want to have to be taped."

(11-24-2011, 02:36 AM)Turtle link Wrote: so it's like 2 am here and i havent seriously posted on brbu for a while i suppose but fuck it hello again i am thinking about my life

If you ever read that book "Ordinary People" about that kid whose brother died and he tried to commit suicide but lives and it's all about him trying to get back into his normal life after such a big fucking deal like that. Everything in that book matches my life pretty much exactly except for attempted suicide and the dead brother thing (which is why its a good book and not a fucking journal). One of his parents is so disconnected with him that they actually go through the other parent in order to talk most of the time, unless its about serious shit that they have to confront. The other is so worried about their child and protective of him after what has happened that they practically smother him. The kids story is that he was a very smart, normal kid his whole childhood up until high school or so and his grades dropped from basically all A's to barely passing (sometimes not passing) and he's so overwhelmed by it because he's never had to face these kind of problems before because he's never had them so he tries to avoid all his problems by offing himself. (Some of that might not be exactly right i didn't really read the whole book heh.)

Just in case you think this is like my suicide note or some shit don't worry i'm not (if you're a huge cunt sorry to disappoint). I'm not a scared little shit who scars his friends and family for life because he's too big of a bitch to deal with it. But besides that his life matches mine pretty exactly. My parents and my life are the same as his. Naturally, since this is kind of embarrassing I usually lie about what i'm here to talk about.

Freshman year I failed English I and my overall gpa was a 1.39. Despite popular beliefs none of that is because i'm stupid. Last year I took the practice act and for english i was in the 90th percentile. English is an easy fucking class (to be honest im surprised i failed it even with my horrible horrible habits). The reason my grades are so fucking awful is because I am without a doubt the laziest son of a bitch that I have ever known. It use to be just a joke to me but it's quickly dawning on me that I am throwing everything away so I can spend more time doing nothing. Even with a 4.0 for the next 3 years the best overall gpa i can get is a 3.3. I use to blame it all on my parents but it's not my moms fault that the bitch who took custody of my step-sisters decided to drop them on her and my dad the moment they turned 13 and started becoming a problem. My sisters both did complete shit in school and my parents and them get along so badly that i see them maybe once a year if i'm lucky. The truth is my parents never had the chance to raise a kid into adolescence, just to fear the day that they become one. I love my parents I wouldn't change them for the world. No, it's my fault that this happened. I stopped giving a shit about my future so I could play video games all day. I don't even have any hobbies other than that. Not at all. I mean I guess jeff got me into Water Polo but fuck if i take that seriously (sorry jeff). Right now I want to become an Anthropologist because Religion is pretty cool to learn about, but last year it was Neurology and before that it was law. I have no meaningful thing in my life and there's nothing I have that keeps me on the right track. Maybe I'm just being stupid, and all it takes is a little god damn willpower. Maybe this won't make any sense because honestly I feel like im already asleep. It doesn't matter because I just needed to get it off my chest somewhere.

Thanks for giving me a place to put this even if you don't want to read it, I'm gonna listen to some more jams.
Also i'm not writing a tl;dr because if you're just gonna be a shithead about it don't bother (which will probably be the natural reaction)

(11-24-2011, 02:36 AM)Turtle link Wrote: text

• Join a Club: Doesn't matter what, just do it. Joining a club or after school program can bring you so much happiness you wouldn't believe. If you're not sure what to choose, try a few. They usually have "starting" days or a meeting early in the semester for new members. If you like what you saw, attend the next meet. If you like it again, keep going to it. You'd be amazed at the amount of willpower you can get from something like this.
  
• Get organized: I'm assuming your high school is something like mine, with class being dismissed somewhere between 2:00 and 3:00. Do your homework immediately once you get home. If it's a long assignment or a project, work on it for half-an-hour and take a break. If you're up to it, work on it some more or later that day. The later the day gets, the less you want to do homework, it's just the way the brain works. Getting it done early is the best way to beat procrastination.
  
• Don't let video games be an escape: I can't possibly make this any more abundant. Video games are to school what a broken arm is to a professional masturbater. I get that gaming is an easy way to get distracted from real life, but don't let them control you. Instead, let them be a reward for hard work. It'll feel satisfying to get to play something you worked hard for. In addition, getting homework done early means all the more time for the vidya.
  
• Study for all the tests: Now, look, you probably already know this. Tests and quizzes will most likely account for most of your grade. Even if you don't turn the homework in, there's a good chance you could still pull a B or higher by acing all the tests. Find a way to study method that works for you and stick to it, whether it be study cards, wikipedia, going over notes with a friend, or whatever. Oh, and another thing: NEVER wait until the night before to do it, especially for a big test. You will regret it.
  
• The future doesn't exist yet, so don't freak out about it: When I started high school, I was determined to be a graphic designer. The next year I was going to be a chef. One burnt hand later, and here I am at a film school. You're going to change your major, and you're likely going to do it several times, it's part of growing up. What you're passionate about will become abundantly clear one day. Once you know, pursue it.
  

(11-24-2011, 02:36 AM)Turtle link Wrote: hard to decipher wall of text

(11-24-2011, 03:59 AM)zaneyard link Wrote: it seems like every time i go out and drink i come home and get depressed. i really don't think i'm introverted too much, and it's not that i don't like drinking. I really think it's that i haven't been able to pick up a chick every time i go out. i know that i'm not like super attractive but i'm at least average and i'm not a huge fucking jerk. whatever i guess maybe i should just give up on caring. there's always porn i guess.
it's just kinda hard to give a shit about life when you don't have anything to care for or believe in. i'm not going to be a part of anything important in my life and if i dissapeared now no one would fucking notice.
lifting makes me feel good but it's just damn hard to motivate myself sometimes.


tuttle i'll read your message tomorrow or somethign when my head isn't spinning.

(11-24-2011, 10:38 AM)matter11 link Wrote: [quote author=zaneyard link=topic=3709.msg231396#msg231396 date=1322125194]
it seems like every time i go out and drink i come home and get depressed. i really don't think i'm introverted too much, and it's not that i don't like drinking. I really think it's that i haven't been able to pick up a chick every time i go out. i know that i'm not like super attractive but i'm at least average and i'm not a huge fucking jerk. whatever i guess maybe i should just give up on caring. there's always porn i guess.
it's just kinda hard to give a shit about life when you don't have anything to care for or believe in. i'm not going to be a part of anything important in my life and if i dissapeared now no one would fucking notice.
lifting makes me feel good but it's just damn hard to motivate myself sometimes.


tuttle i'll read your message tomorrow or somethign when my head isn't spinning.

(11-25-2011, 03:53 PM)Cloud_9ine link Wrote: In a similar vein, I'm doin my college apps, early on I was sure of Majoring in Computer engineering but then I started to love MechE and then I realized, I really love being a very general engineer with stuff (e.g. in robotics I hate working a single type of job for too long). So now here I am applying with MechE or Undecided Engineering where possible, looking at all the clubs available at schools I'm applying to and realizing that with all I hope to do, I am not going to have enough time for it all.

(11-25-2011, 08:37 PM)Didzo link Wrote: [quote author=Cloud_9ine link=topic=3709.msg231482#msg231482 date=1322254392]
In a similar vein, I'm doin my college apps, early on I was sure of Majoring in Computer engineering but then I started to love MechE and then I realized, I really love being a very general engineer with stuff (e.g. in robotics I hate working a single type of job for too long). So now here I am applying with MechE or Undecided Engineering where possible, looking at all the clubs available at schools I'm applying to and realizing that with all I hope to do, I am not going to have enough time for it all.

(11-26-2011, 02:06 PM)Kirby the Dick link Wrote: Seeing how many graphical instances of TF2 my PC could run when I overloaded the breaker for this room. The fuck kind of apartment uses 15A for every circuit?! My primary PSU pulls 12A for gods sake.