The "Fuck my life" thread

[copulatingduck]

hi tim, you probably dont want to read this during breakfast



dirty cheating cuntwhore heard through the grapevine that my own way of dealing with things was demonizing her. she wanted to have a nice long talk about it. lots of things were said. she felt i was being unfair by being so upset about it, and that she was trying awfully hard not to flaunt her new relationship in my face. i reminded her that she was a dirty cheating cuntwhore, and that not 2 weeks ago she spoiled her own party by going to third base right there in the lounge, and i unfortunately had to see that.

she is upset that she can no longer "be herself" when she's sending out emails (lol). I'm on every social list that she's on, and her SO's ex (whom was also cheated on and dumped in similar fashion) is on every academic/professional list she's on. I mangled the translation, but was ultimately very pleased with myself when i told her "you shit in your bed, now sleep in it."

she felt it wasn't fair that i held her lack of support pre and post-breakup against her (i had explicitly stated that i would need a buddy and had no other shoulders in Boston that I felt comfortable crying on); that she had tried to get in touch with me, but could never find me, and assumed that that simply meant i didnt want to be found. i reminded her that she never tried phoning or im-ing, and that when it comes to people i dont like, i dont really give a shit about how hard they tried, i just care about results.

she was upset that i was giving her the cold shoulder, and that i was making it so difficult to remain friends. i told her all it takes is a genuine apology (she made one pathetic attempt earlier and even admitted later that it was disingenuous), and a lot of hard work after. i also pointed out that i was perfectly happy to completely forget about her, because if she wasnt willing to apologize then she wasnt really worth my time, as she'd made a pretty shitty friend the last couple months and dropped every ball i gave her. i also pointed out the impracticality of trying to patch things up, what with her worrying about graduating, my unstable living arrangements, and her matriculation to CalTech in the fall all looming. she mentioned "that's actually exactly what i said earlier when you couldnt hear me, and i didnt want to repeat it."

me: "Well I guess great minds think alike."

It was at that point that she very genuinely said "I'm sorry you got hurt," and I lost it. I think more than anything I'm just hurt that I'm not worth the trouble to patch things up.



On the positive side, I accidentally bumped my deadlift up 60lbs from last week. Accidentally grabbed 45's instead of 35's, and then added 20 more again after that felt too light. Only realized after I was ridiculously spent after 4 sets that I was doing 155, which is very nearly my body weight, so I'm pretty pumped about that for a week2.


I'm going to drink myself stupid and go to bed, thanks for listening


edit: jesus, I gotta learn to stop typing such ridiculously long posts

edit x2: to be fair, I'm pretty happy with where my life is right now. I'm working on finishing my degree, and I think I'm pretty much on track for that, minus maybe the alcohol every day. I get to do what I want, whenever I want, and I'm no longer closely associated with anyone who thinks less of me or gives me shit for it. I say what I want (mostly lots of terrible jokes and jibes at friends) and most of my friends agree that while I'm a bigger dick with the teasing, I'm also happier, and tend to make more of an effort to help them when they need it. All but one seem happy for the change. I have people who admire my outlook on life, and even ask me for advice.

While I very frequently extoll the benefits of life-coaches (usually as a snide remark such as "that kid needs a life coach" for laughs), I never imagined anyone would take me seriously, or even worse - consider me a decent life coach. But I've  given my spiel, and when I didn't know what to say I defaulted to the wisdom of others: many thanks to Kor, Rummy, and Crow in particular, you were all very kind and your advice helped me through the absolute worst of a very tough time in my life. Apparently my advice, as well as some of yours has landed one bestie a lady-friend, so I'm happy for him to have that. He's also re-evaluated his dating priorities. Looking for a lifer at such a young age (23) is ridiculous, and asking someone to commit to 40+ years of your life at a time when your values can and often will change dramatically is just asking too much. Hopefully he won't worry so much about marriage and family so much, and just have a fucking good time.

I have a nice little nest-egg from Lottery work, and with even a shitty retail job I'm confident that I would not have a problem living beyond my means. I've had several job interviews (none of which panned out unfotunately), but that is already several interviews more than I ever got in Texas, so I'm confident I'll find work. I have plenty of friends that enjoy my company, and standing invitations to crash at at a multitude of places in Boston if I ever need a pal. I even have this bitching new avatar that makes me feel all warm inside and chuckle irl everytime I see it, it has really made my day. I'm generally very happy with how things are going, this was just a very distressing evening that I had hoped to avoid.

[copulatingduck]

in b4 coolstorybro

[Didzo]

tl;dr

[copulatingduck]

coming from you, i'm probably happier knowing u didn't read it :-*

[Didzo]

coming from you, i'm probably happier knowing u didn't read it :-*

I actually did read it.

:-*








I had warm tears streaming down my smiling cheeks by the end.

[rumsfald]

Good to read you've got your head on straight, duck. No one forgets how to show respect, but they sometimes choose not to. She has too many strikes against her to forgive a lack of respect.

[CaffeinePowered]

in b4 coolstorybro

Did you find $5 in the end?


But not seriously, I would almost reclassify your post as a 'this made my day'. While hard, it seems to me at least that it was something that needed to happen, a final bit of closure.

Good to see you got things straightened out and I hope you finish your degree and find work soon 

[Surf314]

Sounds like she is way too selfish to be worth your time, glad you figured it out. If you ever come to Florida we can hang out at Disney and I'll take you on all the rides *wink wink*

:-*

[SAVAGE-0]

rejected from my #1 choice law school and now I have to put down a deposit of money I dont have for accepting the one school i did get into because I've already gotten an extention on the due date but I still havent heard from my #2 choice which i think I have a decent chance at getting in because I went to undergrad there
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[Surf314]

rejected from my #1 choice law school and now I have to put down a deposit of money I dont have for accepting the one school i did get into because I've already gotten an extention on the due date but I still havent heard from my #2 choice which i think I have a decent chance at getting in because I went to undergrad there
/end runon

This law school shit is tough innit? I really don't understand why they are so damned late with these decisions.

[A. Crow]

Dude, why were you still talking to her up to this point? 

But like Rummy said, it looks like you're well on the road to getting your head unfucked. 

[Versus]

<3 duck

[If-I-Die-Its-Lag]

<3 Duck

Anyway, my friend pisses me off over Facebook today. He said he actually likes being miserable in the navy.

[cbre88x]

in b4 coolstorybro

the end of this video is for you..also the beginning for awesome pimpalicious bootay. It's a shame this video is edited.

YouTube
- Broadcast Yourself.

[Luinbariel]

Not every relationship contains anything worth saving. I'm glad you said what you had to say. So many of us never do.

[copulatingduck]

Dude, why were you still talking to her up to this point? 

But like Rummy said, it looks like you're well on the road to getting your head unfucked. 

This was actually the first time I talked to her since the breakup, as I've made quite an effort to avoid her, even going so far as to claiming "oh I'm only gonna be in Boston for half an hour before I have to travel again, just drop my shit off in my room while I'm not there." Luin hit the nail on the head with the "say what you had to say" bit: now that I'm sober and awake, I'm glad that I had a chance to say my piece.

@Savage: that sucks something fierce. Is there any way to get a hold of the other school to see if perhaps a decision has been made and you just haven't received word yet, and maybe get an answer by phone?

[Vlambo]

@Vlambo: that sucks something fierce. Is there any way to get a hold of the other school to see if perhaps a decision has been made and you just haven't received word yet, and maybe get an answer by phone?

Think you mean SAVAGE-O there

[copulatingduck]

God I'm a retard, thanks for the correction.  >_<

[Professor Funbucks]

waw
I can't use the school's gym during the summer?
Bullshit.
Gotta find me some cheap gym equipment and download some sort of work out...lol

[Surf314]

[quote author=LT Crow link=topic=3709.msg150733#msg150733 date=1273067291]
Dude, why were you still talking to her up to this point? 

But like Rummy said, it looks like you're well on the road to getting your head unfucked. 

This was actually the first time I talked to her since the breakup, as I've made quite an effort to avoid her, even going so far as to claiming "oh I'm only gonna be in Boston for half an hour before I have to travel again, just drop my shit off in my room while I'm not there." Luin hit the nail on the head with the "say what you had to say" bit: now that I'm sober and awake, I'm glad that I had a chance to say my piece.

@Savage: that sucks something fierce. Is there any way to get a hold of the other school to see if perhaps a decision has been made and you just haven't received word yet, and maybe get an answer by phone?
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He can also call the school he needs to put a deposit down. When I called they said as long as I haven't already been accepted I could change my mind but I'd forfeit the deposit.