The "Fuck my life" thread

[Azure_Angel]

[quote author=Azure_Angel link=topic=3709.msg245193#msg245193 date=1337052637]
I've been slowly slipping into depression for the last 2 weeks or so. It ironically sped up when I realized that I'm a lot like Katniss from the Hunger Games trilogy. The last few days I just stare at the world wondering how many people I could kill before getting caught. This probably doesn't warrant posting in this thread, but I need to vent.

Well, if this is legit depression (pill here depression), I can't help you, there are professionals for that. If this is, I'm lonely, bored, my life isn't going anywhere kind of depression, I can give you some advice.

Set yourself a few goals. You need at least one short term and one long term goal. For me my short term goal was to continue gaining strength with my lifting. It's part of a long term goal to reach my ideal body. Also, another one of my goals was to keep applying for work. I need a job/career to function.

I would highly recommend some sort of physical activity to help you. For me, seeing the amount of weight I add on each side of the bar increase helped me tremendously. Maybe you're a stereotypical girl and you think that one night you're going to accidentally touch a barbell and suddenly you'll have arms bigger than Arnie. That doesn't really happen but I'm not going to try to argue with you in this situation. Running is a great way to see progression as well. You'll start feeling less shitty when you walk up stairs (this part is implying you don't run already), you'll start being able to run farther. Whatever you do, it's the simple aspect that you need to push yourself to do what you don't think you can do. It just gives you something to look forward to when you don't think you have anything.
Masturbation also helps.
[/quote]

I decided to take up archery (yes Katniss), seeing as how Vancouver is not the best surf location.

It's more though the fact that I can't really seem to connect with anyone anymore. I've become really negative towards most people in my life, including my girlfriend. I try to keep my comments to myself, but occasionally they slip out. They've been really bad too. I'm afraid I'm pushing her away, and yet I'm afraid to stay with her as well. I'm becoming increasingly disconnected from the world. THe only person I've had a positive conversation with in the last week is Didzo. I feel like I'm rambling at this point but LT Crow is right, saying it helps me out.

I'm not a big fan of masturbation... Though lately I've been dreaming about doggy style.

[zaneyard]

I've become really negative towards most people in my life

Take a step back and figure out why you feel this way. Just keep in mind here that you're not 100 percent compatible with everyone in the world. It's up to you to decide how much those things bug you.

[Surf314]

[quote author=zaneyard link=topic=3709.msg245256#msg245256 date=1337100092]
[quote author=Azure_Angel link=topic=3709.msg245193#msg245193 date=1337052637]
I've been slowly slipping into depression for the last 2 weeks or so. It ironically sped up when I realized that I'm a lot like Katniss from the Hunger Games trilogy. The last few days I just stare at the world wondering how many people I could kill before getting caught. This probably doesn't warrant posting in this thread, but I need to vent.

Well, if this is legit depression (pill here depression), I can't help you, there are professionals for that. If this is, I'm lonely, bored, my life isn't going anywhere kind of depression, I can give you some advice.

Set yourself a few goals. You need at least one short term and one long term goal. For me my short term goal was to continue gaining strength with my lifting. It's part of a long term goal to reach my ideal body. Also, another one of my goals was to keep applying for work. I need a job/career to function.

I would highly recommend some sort of physical activity to help you. For me, seeing the amount of weight I add on each side of the bar increase helped me tremendously. Maybe you're a stereotypical girl and you think that one night you're going to accidentally touch a barbell and suddenly you'll have arms bigger than Arnie. That doesn't really happen but I'm not going to try to argue with you in this situation. Running is a great way to see progression as well. You'll start feeling less shitty when you walk up stairs (this part is implying you don't run already), you'll start being able to run farther. Whatever you do, it's the simple aspect that you need to push yourself to do what you don't think you can do. It just gives you something to look forward to when you don't think you have anything.
Masturbation also helps.
[/quote]

I decided to take up archery (yes Katniss), seeing as how Vancouver is not the best surf location.

It's more though the fact that I can't really seem to connect with anyone anymore. I've become really negative towards most people in my life, including my girlfriend. I try to keep my comments to myself, but occasionally they slip out. They've been really bad too. I'm afraid I'm pushing her away, and yet I'm afraid to stay with her as well. I'm becoming increasingly disconnected from the world. THe only person I've had a positive conversation with in the last week is Didzo. I feel like I'm rambling at this point but LT Crow is right, saying it helps me out.

I'm not a big fan of masturbation... Though lately I've been dreaming about doggy style.
[/quote]

I've gone through something I think is similar to what you are describing. In my case I think it was stress, coupled with anger and resentment I subconsciously developed thinking people weren't appreciating me/how hard I was working/how miserable I was at times/etc. What changed it for me was realizing that it was due to stress and that I needed to address it and that I was not communicating well/assuming the worst in people. My trick was a combination of exercise and realizing that just because I justifiably am stressed out and exhausted doesn't mean I'm not being unjustifiably a dick about it or handling it poorly so that I am making things worse for myself.

[Dtrain323i]

[quote author=zaneyard link=topic=3709.msg245256#msg245256 date=1337100092]
[quote author=Azure_Angel link=topic=3709.msg245193#msg245193 date=1337052637]
I've been slowly slipping into depression for the last 2 weeks or so. It ironically sped up when I realized that I'm a lot like Katniss from the Hunger Games trilogy. The last few days I just stare at the world wondering how many people I could kill before getting caught. This probably doesn't warrant posting in this thread, but I need to vent.

Well, if this is legit depression (pill here depression), I can't help you, there are professionals for that. If this is, I'm lonely, bored, my life isn't going anywhere kind of depression, I can give you some advice.

Set yourself a few goals. You need at least one short term and one long term goal. For me my short term goal was to continue gaining strength with my lifting. It's part of a long term goal to reach my ideal body. Also, another one of my goals was to keep applying for work. I need a job/career to function.

I would highly recommend some sort of physical activity to help you. For me, seeing the amount of weight I add on each side of the bar increase helped me tremendously. Maybe you're a stereotypical girl and you think that one night you're going to accidentally touch a barbell and suddenly you'll have arms bigger than Arnie. That doesn't really happen but I'm not going to try to argue with you in this situation. Running is a great way to see progression as well. You'll start feeling less shitty when you walk up stairs (this part is implying you don't run already), you'll start being able to run farther. Whatever you do, it's the simple aspect that you need to push yourself to do what you don't think you can do. It just gives you something to look forward to when you don't think you have anything.
Masturbation also helps.
[/quote]

[color=blue]I decided to take up archery (yes Katniss), seeing as how Vancouver is not the best surf location.

It's more though the fact that I can't really seem to connect with anyone anymore. I've become really negative towards most people in my life, including my girlfriend. I try to keep my comments to myself, but occasionally they slip out. They've been really bad too. I'm afraid I'm pushing her away, and yet I'm afraid to stay with her as well. I'm becoming increasingly disconnected from the world. THe only person I've had a positive conversation with in the last week is Didzo. I feel like I'm rambling at this point but LT Crow is right, saying it helps me out.

I'm not a big fan of masturbation... Though lately I've been dreaming about doggy style.[/color]
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Do it. I'm a gun collector and target shooter. Nothing relieves stress like putting holes through paper. Put your troubles on that target and shoot the hell out of it.

[Azure_Angel]

I've gone through something I think is similar to what you are describing. In my case I think it was stress, coupled with anger and resentment I subconsciously developed thinking people weren't appreciating me/how hard I was working/how miserable I was at times/etc. What changed it for me was realizing that it was due to stress and that I needed to address it and that I was not communicating well/assuming the worst in people. My trick was a combination of exercise and realizing that just because I justifiably am stressed out and exhausted doesn't mean I'm not being unjustifiably a dick about it or handling it poorly so that I am making things worse for myself.

That does sound a lot like what I'm going through, thank you.

Do it. I'm a gun collector and target shooter. Nothing relieves stress like putting holes through paper. Put your troubles on that target and shoot the hell out of it.

I just need to figure out what kind of bow I want. (not a compound bow).

[matter11]

[quote author=Surf314 link=topic=3709.msg245279#msg245279 date=1337115756]
I've gone through something I think is similar to what you are describing. In my case I think it was stress, coupled with anger and resentment I subconsciously developed thinking people weren't appreciating me/how hard I was working/how miserable I was at times/etc. What changed it for me was realizing that it was due to stress and that I needed to address it and that I was not communicating well/assuming the worst in people. My trick was a combination of exercise and realizing that just because I justifiably am stressed out and exhausted doesn't mean I'm not being unjustifiably a dick about it or handling it poorly so that I am making things worse for myself.

That does sound a lot like what I'm going through, thank you.

Do it. I'm a gun collector and target shooter. Nothing relieves stress like putting holes through paper. Put your troubles on that target and shoot the hell out of it.

I just need to figure out what kind of bow I want. (not a compound bow).
[/quote]
I've been heavily interested in taking up archery for some time. I want a wood recurve but am gonna have to visit a store to feel how many lbs of resistance I want.

Also this is the tracking history of my diablo 3.


Date Time Location Event Details
May 15, 2012 06:17:00 PM Newark DE US Arrival Scan
May 14, 2012 10:07:00 PM Philadelphia PA US Arrival Scan
May 14, 2012 07:14:00 PM Philadelphia PA US Shipment received by carrier
May 14, 2012 12:15:06 PM New Castle DE US Shipment has left seller facility and is in transit

fuck logistics

[Didzo]

[quote author=Azure_Angel link=topic=3709.msg245292#msg245292 date=1337126818]
[quote author=Surf314 link=topic=3709.msg245279#msg245279 date=1337115756]
I've gone through something I think is similar to what you are describing. In my case I think it was stress, coupled with anger and resentment I subconsciously developed thinking people weren't appreciating me/how hard I was working/how miserable I was at times/etc. What changed it for me was realizing that it was due to stress and that I needed to address it and that I was not communicating well/assuming the worst in people. My trick was a combination of exercise and realizing that just because I justifiably am stressed out and exhausted doesn't mean I'm not being unjustifiably a dick about it or handling it poorly so that I am making things worse for myself.

That does sound a lot like what I'm going through, thank you.

Do it. I'm a gun collector and target shooter. Nothing relieves stress like putting holes through paper. Put your troubles on that target and shoot the hell out of it.

I just need to figure out what kind of bow I want. (not a compound bow).
[/quote]
I've been heavily interested in taking up archery for some time. I want a wood recurve but am gonna have to visit a store to feel how many lbs of resistance I want.
[/quote]

My first thought upon reading this was: "how long until we get to see an arrow lodged in a body part in the picture thread?"

:-X

[Azure_Angel]

[quote author=matter11 link=topic=3709.msg245293#msg245293 date=1337127201]
[quote author=Azure_Angel link=topic=3709.msg245292#msg245292 date=1337126818]
[quote author=Surf314 link=topic=3709.msg245279#msg245279 date=1337115756]
I've gone through something I think is similar to what you are describing. In my case I think it was stress, coupled with anger and resentment I subconsciously developed thinking people weren't appreciating me/how hard I was working/how miserable I was at times/etc. What changed it for me was realizing that it was due to stress and that I needed to address it and that I was not communicating well/assuming the worst in people. My trick was a combination of exercise and realizing that just because I justifiably am stressed out and exhausted doesn't mean I'm not being unjustifiably a dick about it or handling it poorly so that I am making things worse for myself.

That does sound a lot like what I'm going through, thank you.

Do it. I'm a gun collector and target shooter. Nothing relieves stress like putting holes through paper. Put your troubles on that target and shoot the hell out of it.

I just need to figure out what kind of bow I want. (not a compound bow).
[/quote]
I've been heavily interested in taking up archery for some time. I want a wood recurve but am gonna have to visit a store to feel how many lbs of resistance I want.
[/quote]

My first thought upon reading this was: "how long until we get to see an arrow lodged in a body part in the picture thread?"

:-X


[/quote]

I say give it 2-3 weeks.

;D

[Versus]

Nothing relieves stress like putting holes through touhous.

[Azure_Angel]

[quote author=Dtrain323i link=topic=3709.msg245287#msg245287 date=1337120271]Nothing relieves stress like putting holes through touhous.

[/quote]

I don't think he meant those kinds of holes....

[quote author=Azure_Angel link=topic=3709.msg245208#msg245208 date=1337057426]
[quote author=LT Crow link=topic=3709.msg245206#msg245206 date=1337056792]
[quote author=Azure_Angel link=topic=3709.msg245193#msg245193 date=1337052637]
I've been slowly slipping into depression for the last 2 weeks or so. It ironically sped up when I realized that I'm a lot like Katniss from the Hunger Games trilogy. The last few days I just stare at the world wondering how many people I could kill before getting caught. This probably doesn't warrant posting in this thread, but I need to vent.

Pariah, take note- the proper way to complain about depression; a little bit of context, not "I HAVE A SAD."  Note; she will probably not post about it every day now.  

That being said, <directed at the world in general> if you're feeling depressed as shit, lamenting to this board will probably not improve your situation, but if you truly need someone to sound off to, we're here.  But you'd better be prepared to spill the beans so that by talking through the situation with random internet board you actually talk it through with yourself.  Sometimes typing out the specifics is all you need to detach and gain some perspective, but I feel I'm getting into other people's lane here.  So, in closing, if you're sad, quit being fucking sad and be awesome instead, and if you want to talk through it, the board is here.  

[/quote]

I like you. When I snap and go on a murder spree, you won't die cause I don't know where you live.
[/quote]

I'm so relieved.  

I tell you what, I'll give you my address if you promise to come after me first; it's been over half a year since the last time someone tried to kill me specifically and I kinda miss the personal attention.
[/quote]

Can I chase you around the city leaving large swaths of collateral damage only for us to have an epic showdown in the centre for all to see?

[A. Crow]

[quote author=Azure_Angel link=topic=3709.msg245208#msg245208 date=1337057426]
[quote author=LT Crow link=topic=3709.msg245206#msg245206 date=1337056792]
[quote author=Azure_Angel link=topic=3709.msg245193#msg245193 date=1337052637]
I've been slowly slipping into depression for the last 2 weeks or so. It ironically sped up when I realized that I'm a lot like Katniss from the Hunger Games trilogy. The last few days I just stare at the world wondering how many people I could kill before getting caught. This probably doesn't warrant posting in this thread, but I need to vent.

Pariah, take note- the proper way to complain about depression; a little bit of context, not "I HAVE A SAD."  Note; she will probably not post about it every day now.  

That being said, <directed at the world in general> if you're feeling depressed as shit, lamenting to this board will probably not improve your situation, but if you truly need someone to sound off to, we're here.  But you'd better be prepared to spill the beans so that by talking through the situation with random internet board you actually talk it through with yourself.  Sometimes typing out the specifics is all you need to detach and gain some perspective, but I feel I'm getting into other people's lane here.  So, in closing, if you're sad, quit being fucking sad and be awesome instead, and if you want to talk through it, the board is here.  

[/quote]

I like you. When I snap and go on a murder spree, you won't die cause I don't know where you live.
[/quote]

I'm so relieved.  

I tell you what, I'll give you my address if you promise to come after me first; it's been over half a year since the last time someone tried to kill me specifically and I kinda miss the personal attention.
[/quote]

Can I chase you around the city leaving large swaths of collateral damage only for us to have an epic showdown in the centre for all to see?


No. Sorry.  That's not the implication here.  And it doesn't work, generally, if you're being shot at and you run, you just end up shot in the back- there's not much of a chase.  That, and I don't run.  

[Surf314]

[quote author=Surf314 link=topic=3709.msg245279#msg245279 date=1337115756]
I've gone through something I think is similar to what you are describing. In my case I think it was stress, coupled with anger and resentment I subconsciously developed thinking people weren't appreciating me/how hard I was working/how miserable I was at times/etc. What changed it for me was realizing that it was due to stress and that I needed to address it and that I was not communicating well/assuming the worst in people. My trick was a combination of exercise and realizing that just because I justifiably am stressed out and exhausted doesn't mean I'm not being unjustifiably a dick about it or handling it poorly so that I am making things worse for myself.

That does sound a lot like what I'm going through, thank you.

Do it. I'm a gun collector and target shooter. Nothing relieves stress like putting holes through paper. Put your troubles on that target and shoot the hell out of it.

I just need to figure out what kind of bow I want. (not a compound bow).
[/quote]

It got better for me and I'm sure it will get better for you.

[Azure_Angel]

[quote author=LT Crow link=topic=3709.msg245221#msg245221 date=1337066841]
[quote author=Azure_Angel link=topic=3709.msg245208#msg245208 date=1337057426]
[quote author=LT Crow link=topic=3709.msg245206#msg245206 date=1337056792]
[quote author=Azure_Angel link=topic=3709.msg245193#msg245193 date=1337052637]
I've been slowly slipping into depression for the last 2 weeks or so. It ironically sped up when I realized that I'm a lot like Katniss from the Hunger Games trilogy. The last few days I just stare at the world wondering how many people I could kill before getting caught. This probably doesn't warrant posting in this thread, but I need to vent.

Pariah, take note- the proper way to complain about depression; a little bit of context, not "I HAVE A SAD."  Note; she will probably not post about it every day now.  

That being said, <directed at the world in general> if you're feeling depressed as shit, lamenting to this board will probably not improve your situation, but if you truly need someone to sound off to, we're here.  But you'd better be prepared to spill the beans so that by talking through the situation with random internet board you actually talk it through with yourself.  Sometimes typing out the specifics is all you need to detach and gain some perspective, but I feel I'm getting into other people's lane here.  So, in closing, if you're sad, quit being fucking sad and be awesome instead, and if you want to talk through it, the board is here.  

[/quote]

I like you. When I snap and go on a murder spree, you won't die cause I don't know where you live.
[/quote]

I'm so relieved.  

I tell you what, I'll give you my address if you promise to come after me first; it's been over half a year since the last time someone tried to kill me specifically and I kinda miss the personal attention.
[/quote]

Can I chase you around the city leaving large swaths of collateral damage only for us to have an epic showdown in the centre for all to see?


No. Sorry.  That's not the implication here.  And it doesn't work, generally, if you're being shot at and you run, you just end up shot in the back- there's not much of a chase.  That, and I don't run.  
[/quote]

I have no recollection of writing this, but this sounds more fun anyways.

[Didzo]

Azure: There's a thread for that.

[at0m]

I've also been struggling with depression for the past few months, and have had some serious difficulty getting/staying motivated to do anything besides lay in bed (especially the last few weeks). So much so that I realized a few days ago that I'm nowhere near prepared for the business trip that I'm going on this week, and there's a good possibility it's going to turn into a major fucking fiasco this time next week when we blow past our deadline for completing the controls upgrade. I'm panicking so hard that every time I try to focus and get my shit done NOW while it's still (somewhat) recoverable, that I basically go IMFUCKEDIMFUCKEDIMFUCKED, hyperventilate, and have to "work" on something else to calm back down. Currently trying to divide it down to manageable chunks, so I can get as many chunks done before leaving Friday as possible, and hopefully pick up the pieces as they fall over the weekend and early next week.

I can do this. I think.

[zaneyard]

get that shit done bro you got it

[Azure_Angel]

I've also been struggling with depression for the past few months, and have had some serious difficulty getting/staying motivated to do anything besides lay in bed (especially the last few weeks). So much so that I realized a few days ago that I'm nowhere near prepared for the business trip that I'm going on this week, and there's a good possibility it's going to turn into a major fucking fiasco this time next week when we blow past our deadline for completing the controls upgrade. I'm panicking so hard that every time I try to focus and get my shit done NOW while it's still (somewhat) recoverable, that I basically go IMFUCKEDIMFUCKEDIMFUCKED, hyperventilate, and have to "work" on something else to calm back down. Currently trying to divide it down to manageable chunks, so I can get as many chunks done before leaving Friday as possible, and hopefully pick up the pieces as they fall over the weekend and early next week.

I can do this. I think.

Come to Vancouver and we can have a, "Fuck Depression in the Ass" Pow-wow :3 We can support each other and defeat this slump!

Azure: There's a thread for that.

You tell me this now! D:

[zaneyard]

Fuck in the Ass

my favorite kind

[at0m]

[quote author=at0m link=topic=3709.msg245361#msg245361 date=1337195832]
I've also been struggling with depression for the past few months, and have had some serious difficulty getting/staying motivated to do anything besides lay in bed (especially the last few weeks). So much so that I realized a few days ago that I'm nowhere near prepared for the business trip that I'm going on this week, and there's a good possibility it's going to turn into a major fucking fiasco this time next week when we blow past our deadline for completing the controls upgrade. I'm panicking so hard that every time I try to focus and get my shit done NOW while it's still (somewhat) recoverable, that I basically go IMFUCKEDIMFUCKEDIMFUCKED, hyperventilate, and have to "work" on something else to calm back down. Currently trying to divide it down to manageable chunks, so I can get as many chunks done before leaving Friday as possible, and hopefully pick up the pieces as they fall over the weekend and early next week.

I can do this. I think.

Come to Vancouver and we can have a, "Fuck Depression in the Ass" Pow-wow :3 We can support each other and defeat this slump!
[/quote]WA or BC? Might be worth the trip, although one of my exes lives right near Vancouver, BC (she grew up there, actually)

[Didzo]

Grandfather just passed away. Wasn't unexpected, but it's still not the sort of news that's easy to hear.