The "Fuck my life" thread

[Didzo]

Whenever I try to turn on my computer the "CPU overheating" light comes on and it won't even boot.
I hadn't used it for a day or two before this started happening. It's not actually overheating so I have no idea what's wrong with it.

Are you sure it's not actually overheating?

Where is this overheating light?

[Totla]

[quote author=Tortilla link=topic=3709.msg272085#msg272085 date=1381286376]
Whenever I try to turn on my computer the "CPU overheating" light comes on and it won't even boot.
I hadn't used it for a day or two before this started happening. It's not actually overheating so I have no idea what's wrong with it.

Are you sure it's not actually overheating?

Where is this overheating light?


[/quote]I'm pretty sure. I unplugged the computer for about 12 hours and when i turned it on the light was immediately on. The first time this happened it hadn't been on in two days and was immediately on.

It's the red one at the top. According to the manual:
LED4: CPU Hot LED (Red)
When the CPU processor is overheating, the LED is on

[Didzo]

Is the fan working?

[Totla]

Is the fan working?

The fan works normally yes, and it hasn't been doing anything weird lately so I don't think that's it. I also put new thermal paste on so it should be getting good heat transfer. The only thing I can think of is that there's something wrong with the temperature sensor, but I'm not quite sure how to check that out when the computer won't even boot.

[CaffeinePowered]

[quote author=Didzo link=topic=3709.msg272089#msg272089 date=1381292313]
Is the fan working?

The fan works normally yes, and it hasn't been doing anything weird lately so I don't think that's it. I also put new thermal paste on so it should be getting good heat transfer. The only thing I can think of is that there's something wrong with the temperature sensor, but I'm not quite sure how to check that out when the computer won't even boot.
[/quote]

Usually it will tell you in the BIOS if you can get to that...

[Totla]

[quote author=Tortilla link=topic=3709.msg272090#msg272090 date=1381295931]
[quote author=Didzo link=topic=3709.msg272089#msg272089 date=1381292313]
Is the fan working?

The fan works normally yes, and it hasn't been doing anything weird lately so I don't think that's it. I also put new thermal paste on so it should be getting good heat transfer. The only thing I can think of is that there's something wrong with the temperature sensor, but I'm not quite sure how to check that out when the computer won't even boot.
[/quote]

Usually it will tell you in the BIOS if you can get to that...
[/quote]As of right now the boot process doesn't start at all. The monitor doesn't even wake up. I'll play with it later and see if I can get it to go to the BIOS.

[k0ala]

Great time at my club adventure in San Francisco, fast dancing and slow dancing and outside to cool off, first and only social experience all month, and then I saw a cop draw his pistol and order some hooligan off his motorcycle less than a block from where I was standing, and I wasn't having fun anymore.

[Surf314]

I'm kinda freaking out right now. I had my signed oath ready to send off with the envelope. My wife cleaned up the table and now I have the envelope and no oath. If I can't find it I will have to request a new oath form and then get re-sworn in. This is like the worst. I feel like I'm in Brazil.

[at0m]

Is that a huge deal? You don't have to re pass the bar again right?

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[Surf314]

Is that a huge deal? You don't have to re pass the bar again right?

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It's not a huge deal, just a huge hassle. You have to submit your oath within 90 days of getting notice that you passed. I still have like 70 days. But now instead of having plenty of time I have to factor in all the bureaucracy I'm going to have to go through and it's now something I have to actively worry about. I'm tempted to just drive the 3 hours to their HQ on Friday if I can't find it by then to get it all taken care of.

[at0m]

That actually sounds like a solid plan, especially if you have a contingent job offer.

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[Duck, Duck, Goose]

Right so, I need some advice. This is going to sound super lame and whatnot, but whatever, I gotta get this off my chest. Basically, if you're not aware, we humans have this organ called the 'heart'. Now, this organ is mostly responsible for pumping blood to our other organs, but somewhere in the past, people believed it was the central point of the emotion called 'love'. Modern science can probably conclude that this emotion isn't actually centered in the heart, but rather the mind. Either way, this emotion is extremely powerful. It seems growing up in this culture, being exposed to the intrigues and fascinations of this emotion are completely unavoidable. I quickly grew up with a fascination of being in love with some kind of princess figure, saving her from some terrible evil (thanks Zelda), and so on and so forth. Now enter reality. Around Grade 3, I found a heart necklace somewhere at recess once that I thought would make a swell gift whenever I got a girlfriend. You know, that shit would have been adorable for a kid... but things get a little more complicated when you factor in the fact that I still have this necklace (and how that would probably be taken as creepy in this glorious age). I've never had a girlfriend. And it's not like I'm some smelly, fat, not-giving-a-fuck nerd. I've always been athletic, playing hockey and soccer my entire life. I even used to talk to girls back in the day. But things have just spiraled downhill. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm not the personality to go out and be all macho, thinking with my dick, hunting girls like prey. I don't view ladies as an object I'm pursuing, but rather, you know, an actual living, breathing human being. There's one girl in particular that I fancy, but shit's complicated. She has a boyfriend, or had, or broke up with him and got back together, or I don't even know.

One night, she was drunk at a party, and was giving me these looks. Then she went outside for a smoke, and asked if I wanted to come out (like very specifically to me, and not a general "who wants to smoke"). So basically, once we're outside with another one of our friends, she drops this bombshell about how she's not happy with the way her boyfriend has treated her, etc. etc., and mentions how she wants to break up with him and how she's looking forward to being with other guys (especially because they didn't have sex in over 2 months). So then later, her boyfriend arrives and shit goes down. I didn't witness anything, except the aftermath where she was just puking or something in a bedroom. I just felt super awkward the whole time because she's the nicest girl I've ever met (seriously, the first time I met her, she ran all the way down the driveway of my buddies house and hugged me as I was leaving. That leaves a lasting impression, goddamn. Why aren't more people like her?). I wanted to repay that kindness she's always shown me, but everyone else was just kind of taking charge of the situation, and you had the other girls and her closer friends comforting her and whatnot. There was just nothing that I felt was appropriate to do or say. I'm just some kid in the background.

Oh, and that's not even the worst part. Thing is, this happened last fucking year (2012). My mind is just so stuck on this, and I don't feel myself moving forward or getting over it on my own. I can't deal with it anymore. I just feel pathetic and worthless. I'm losing sleep, missing work, and just generally feeling like shit. I'm prescribed anti-depressants, but they don't really do fuck all, since it's just a pill, not a magical eraser for problems the mind is caught on. I'm not sure if any of you have ever dealt with anything similar, but I could really use some advice. :-\

[Neptune]

Right so, I need some advice. This is going to sound super lame and whatnot, but whatever, I gotta get this off my chest. Basically, if you're not aware, we humans have this organ called the 'heart'. Now, this organ is mostly responsible for pumping blood to our other organs, but somewhere in the past, people believed it was the central point of the emotion called 'love'. Modern science can probably conclude that this emotion isn't actually centered in the heart, but rather the mind. Either way, this emotion is extremely powerful. It seems growing up in this culture, being exposed to the intrigues and fascinations of this emotion are completely unavoidable. I quickly grew up with a fascination of being in love with some kind of princess figure, saving her from some terrible evil (thanks Zelda), and so on and so forth. Now enter reality. Around Grade 3, I found a heart necklace somewhere at recess once that I thought would make a swell gift whenever I got a girlfriend. You know, that shit would have been adorable for a kid... but things get a little more complicated when you factor in the fact that I still have this necklace (and how that would probably be taken as creepy in this glorious age). I've never had a girlfriend. And it's not like I'm some smelly, fat, not-giving-a-fuck nerd. I've always been athletic, playing hockey and soccer my entire life. I even used to talk to girls back in the day. But things have just spiraled downhill. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm not the personality to go out and be all macho, thinking with my dick, hunting girls like prey. I don't view ladies as an object I'm pursuing, but rather, you know, an actual living, breathing human being. There's one girl in particular that I fancy, but shit's complicated. She has a boyfriend, or had, or broke up with him and got back together, or I don't even know.

One night, she was drunk at a party, and was giving me these looks. Then she went outside for a smoke, and asked if I wanted to come out (like very specifically to me, and not a general "who wants to smoke"). So basically, once we're outside with another one of our friends, she drops this bombshell about how she's not happy with the way her boyfriend has treated her, etc. etc., and mentions how she wants to break up with him and how she's looking forward to being with other guys (especially because they didn't have sex in over 2 months). So then later, her boyfriend arrives and shit goes down. I didn't witness anything, except the aftermath where she was just puking or something in a bedroom. I just felt super awkward the whole time because she's the nicest girl I've ever met (seriously, the first time I met her, she ran all the way down the driveway of my buddies house and hugged me as I was leaving. That leaves a lasting impression, goddamn. Why aren't more people like her?). I wanted to repay that kindness she's always shown me, but everyone else was just kind of taking charge of the situation, and you had the other girls and her closer friends comforting her and whatnot. There was just nothing that I felt was appropriate to do or say. I'm just some kid in the background.

Oh, and that's not even the worst part. Thing is, this happened last fucking year (2012). My mind is just so stuck on this, and I don't feel myself moving forward or getting over it on my own. I can't deal with it anymore. I just feel pathetic and worthless. I'm losing sleep, missing work, and just generally feeling like shit. I'm prescribed anti-depressants, but they don't really do fuck all, since it's just a pill, not a magical eraser for problems the mind is caught on. I'm not sure if any of you have ever dealt with anything similar, but I could really use some advice. :-\

Take grand, bold actions.

Now, that's not particularly easy, but build up to it.  Not with her, specifically, but do things in general to make yourself feel more confident.  Chicks dig confidence.  They also seem to like assholes.  I can back this up because people in general seem to like me and I'm a huge asshole.  Anyway...

Sometimes, being shy (while being charming) is also it's own liability.  Get used to taking charge (you said others were taking charge and you were hanging back), but be careful not to become overbearing.  It's a fine line.  Once you feel more confident (or even before then), hang out a with her or other girls, or whoever you like.  Eventually, another HUGE HINT like that will drop and you can take action on it.  Doing it now would be weird. 

Hang on to the necklace.  It will look odd when you first meet.  It'll look sweet when you're going to get married.

[rumbot]

It's called Limerence http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Limerence

And you won't shake it till you have something new in your life to pour your energy into, like a new girl, or get OCD on a good hobby. Exercise would be best. Music, art, anything creative will do.

[CaffeinePowered]

It's called Limerence http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Limerence

And you won't shake it till you have something new in your life to pour your energy into, like a new girl, or get OCD on a good hobby. Exercise would be best. Music, art, anything creative will do.

Man knows his stuff.

If you kept up with each other you can probably start something off again slowly, she was dropping you hints but we all drop the ball sometimes. Also you should not care  if someone has an SO. I draw a firm line at engagement/marriage where you never interject yourself, but if they just have an SO, that's a boundary you can at least poke, especially when someone drops the hints that she was dropping.

If you have not kept up contact, its best to let it go and shelve it away as a life lesson. Things will present themselves to you again at some point.

[Didzo]

Right so, I need some advice. This is going to sound super lame and whatnot, but whatever, I gotta get this off my chest. Basically, if you're not aware, we humans have this organ called the 'heart'. Now, this organ is mostly responsible for pumping blood to our other organs, but somewhere in the past, people believed it was the central point of the emotion called 'love'. Modern science can probably conclude that this emotion isn't actually centered in the heart, but rather the mind. Either way, this emotion is extremely powerful. It seems growing up in this culture, being exposed to the intrigues and fascinations of this emotion are completely unavoidable. I quickly grew up with a fascination of being in love with some kind of princess figure, saving her from some terrible evil (thanks Zelda), and so on and so forth. Now enter reality. Around Grade 3, I found a heart necklace somewhere at recess once that I thought would make a swell gift whenever I got a girlfriend. You know, that shit would have been adorable for a kid... but things get a little more complicated when you factor in the fact that I still have this necklace (and how that would probably be taken as creepy in this glorious age). I've never had a girlfriend. And it's not like I'm some smelly, fat, not-giving-a-fuck nerd. I've always been athletic, playing hockey and soccer my entire life. I even used to talk to girls back in the day. But things have just spiraled downhill. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm not the personality to go out and be all macho, thinking with my dick, hunting girls like prey. I don't view ladies as an object I'm pursuing, but rather, you know, an actual living, breathing human being. There's one girl in particular that I fancy, but shit's complicated. She has a boyfriend, or had, or broke up with him and got back together, or I don't even know.

One night, she was drunk at a party, and was giving me these looks. Then she went outside for a smoke, and asked if I wanted to come out (like very specifically to me, and not a general "who wants to smoke"). So basically, once we're outside with another one of our friends, she drops this bombshell about how she's not happy with the way her boyfriend has treated her, etc. etc., and mentions how she wants to break up with him and how she's looking forward to being with other guys (especially because they didn't have sex in over 2 months). So then later, her boyfriend arrives and shit goes down. I didn't witness anything, except the aftermath where she was just puking or something in a bedroom. I just felt super awkward the whole time because she's the nicest girl I've ever met (seriously, the first time I met her, she ran all the way down the driveway of my buddies house and hugged me as I was leaving. That leaves a lasting impression, goddamn. Why aren't more people like her?). I wanted to repay that kindness she's always shown me, but everyone else was just kind of taking charge of the situation, and you had the other girls and her closer friends comforting her and whatnot. There was just nothing that I felt was appropriate to do or say. I'm just some kid in the background.

Oh, and that's not even the worst part. Thing is, this happened last fucking year (2012). My mind is just so stuck on this, and I don't feel myself moving forward or getting over it on my own. I can't deal with it anymore. I just feel pathetic and worthless. I'm losing sleep, missing work, and just generally feeling like shit. I'm prescribed anti-depressants, but they don't really do fuck all, since it's just a pill, not a magical eraser for problems the mind is caught on. I'm not sure if any of you have ever dealt with anything similar, but I could really use some advice. :-\

Yup, dealt with similar. Without going into too much detail, it was the first time I had ever experienced anything beyond mild attraction or a crush toward someone. I've never known that I had the capacity to feel loneliness, the need for someone else, before then. The whole experience was intense, convoluted (on her end as well), and frequently overwhelming. The interactions went further than observing from afar or just being acquaintances and we spent a whole lot of time together for some months. Of course, everything eventually cracked and came crashing down on top of me. That shit went down over two and a half years ago and it took me maybe a year and a half to get over the worst of it. I've had nightmares and night terrors I can link back to that ordeal next to the more mundane runs of feeling depressed.

Rummy's wiki link to limerence is relevant and could be useful as a catalyst for some constructive introspection. It probably would have made my process more streamlined if I had knew that limerence had a name and that I had a starting point to address part of what I was dealing with. Now I never figured out what to pour energy into (nothing seems to get much interest with me or stick) so I can't comment on how much that helps with anything. But that's a matter not directly relevant to the topic at hand. I obviously don't have a surefire way of lessening the misery, but I ended up asking myself the following over and over again until things finally started to make more sense. You have to disconnect yourself from your own feelings and analyze them. Why do you feel about her the way you do? What exactly captures your attention? Are you enamored by the mental construct you have of her instead of the flawed and imperfect person that inspired the construct? Hint: the answer to that last one is yes. She's not the one fucking with your head, it's your own thoughts of her that are. Having that click really helps. Just don't allow yourself to dwell on "what if" this or that. Fuck that noise. You can't change the past, but you can accept it and use it to guide you in the future.

The only thing I regret is not going to a counselor/therapist/other mental health resource. Probably would have snapped me out of it much, much faster and helped me perform at a greater level in school and extra-curriculars. You've already reached out for some form of assistance, but as you said, meds don't work for you. Having someone to help you restructure the way you think about yourself and the situation and the way you cope with the world should be far more productive.

Finding things to distract yourself with helps too, but you won't gain much in the long run if you can't get to the core of why you're feeling fucked.

If you want to discuss this further, feel free to PM me or message me on Steam.

[A. Crow]

drove from central florida to central kentucky today. 

I'm gonna go sleep.

[Surf314]

Nitrous: Rummy gave you great advice so you should listen to him. You should also know that what you are going through is not uncommon. That is not to diminish it, but just know that others - like me - have experienced it and gotten through it to a better state of mind. I would also like to add that if you did have a relationship with this person it would very likely be unhealthy for you. You are under the influence of a lot of heavy emotions that would warp your perspective and undermine any ability to just enjoy yourself. Just take some time to work on yourself, get comfortable in your skin and learn the strengths of you personality. When you can be happy with yourself you will not believe how easy it is to meet people and have a good time with them.

[A. Crow]

got a decent chip on the leading edge of the hood of my mustang... there's some paint bubbling next to it. 

Took it into the place i use for touch up work, they want to repaint my entire hood. 

[Duck, Duck, Goose]

Thanks guys, I appreciate it.